So, it's been quite the hiatus for me and this blog and basically everything has happened and it's been terrible and good and mind-blowingly heart wrenching. And I'm still SUPER raw, but I'm gonna tell you, reader, the short version despite how scary and vulnerable that is.
I lost both of my sons. This, it's too painful, it's too sacred, so I can only give you this much information.
I got divorced. And then I dragged out a codependent, abusive relationship for 2 more years, BUT... hey you gais (a la Goonies)!!!! I learned a lot, a lot, a lot. And then I ghosted him because, well, frankly, I had nothing left to say. I'm not proud of this, but it's how I handled the situation at the time.
I fell in LOVE. I found out about web development bootcamps, so I went over to DevPoint Labs, got the Grace Hopper scholarship, quit my job, and went to a full-time Ruby on Rails fire hose to the face learning extravaganza. Talk nerdy to me, baby!
I fell DEEPLY in love. I got a job in web development and it is SQL heavy. I may be the most boring person on earth, but SQL makes my heart soar. And I love to make the rest of my code LISTEN to my SQL. I love coding, you guys. Did I make that clear?
I found HOPE. I have talked and talked and talked about and through and in and out of just about everything for decades and it helped, but I needed something more. And now, now I am taking ACTION. Because I am tired of talking. So, like my grandfather, George, I found boxing. I box at a traditional, Brooklyn-style gym. Sometimes you just need to hit things, people. You have to sweat it out with a community of other people who are watching your back.
So, hi and stuff. I'm back.